And today is my birthday. 33 years. I don't feel a bit different than yesterday.
It's very rare for me to have a good birthday. I think my expectations may be too high. It also goes back to my family not making a big deal about birthdays. It was just another day. The only perk is that you didn't have to do your chores.
Today, I would like to thank my mother for ruining my celebration.
We went out to eat yesterday with my family. She yelled at me at the very beginning. This following a comment about a week ago that I should up my Prozac. Ummm, not on Prozac mom. Anyway, it wasn't really a yell. Just a couple of comments in that stern voice, motherly look kind of way. My response was, "Thank you mother."
She won't apologize because I'm sure she doesn't think she did anything wrong. Nor does she remember it.
The really bad part is that dh tried really hard to make this year special. Thanks mom, appreciate you ruining everything. After work today (yes, I work on my birthday) dh is taking me to get a massage and then we are going to dinner. At least that should be nice.
It's very rare for me to have a good birthday. I think my expectations may be too high. It also goes back to my family not making a big deal about birthdays. It was just another day. The only perk is that you didn't have to do your chores.
Today, I would like to thank my mother for ruining my celebration.
We went out to eat yesterday with my family. She yelled at me at the very beginning. This following a comment about a week ago that I should up my Prozac. Ummm, not on Prozac mom. Anyway, it wasn't really a yell. Just a couple of comments in that stern voice, motherly look kind of way. My response was, "Thank you mother."
She won't apologize because I'm sure she doesn't think she did anything wrong. Nor does she remember it.
The really bad part is that dh tried really hard to make this year special. Thanks mom, appreciate you ruining everything. After work today (yes, I work on my birthday) dh is taking me to get a massage and then we are going to dinner. At least that should be nice.
Labels: family news, me
Posted
by Hedda on Monday, April 28, 2008
Today was the 3-mile walk for March for Babies. The day was overcast while we walked which meant that it was a nice day for a walk. Unfortunately, the lady who organized the walk for March of Dimes did a poor job. Things were not organized well and even though I continually told her I was not receiving all of the information she was sending out, I still did not receive any information.
Thank you to all that supported my efforts to support the research to stop premature births.
On another note, I felt really good after the walk. I quite enjoyed it actually. However, now my legs are screaming. At dinner tonight I went to the bathroom with weeman. I told him I had to use the bathroom, too, so he told me to go first. Here's the conversation that followed.
Me: Ouch.
Weeman: What happened?
Me: My legs hurt.
Weeman: My legs hurt for a long time.
Me: We should see somebody about that. You know, they will probably have to cut your legs off.
Weeman: They don't hurt anymore.
Thank you to all that supported my efforts to support the research to stop premature births.
On another note, I felt really good after the walk. I quite enjoyed it actually. However, now my legs are screaming. At dinner tonight I went to the bathroom with weeman. I told him I had to use the bathroom, too, so he told me to go first. Here's the conversation that followed.
Me: Ouch.
Weeman: What happened?
Me: My legs hurt.
Weeman: My legs hurt for a long time.
Me: We should see somebody about that. You know, they will probably have to cut your legs off.
Weeman: They don't hurt anymore.
Labels: prematurity, that's hilarious, wee man
Posted
by Hedda on Saturday, April 26, 2008
Updated to add: This afternoon my friend sent me an email that said they were very busy and both were fighting being sick. I don't know what I think about that.
You know what bothers me about women? We are so threatened by other women. Why can't men have friends that are women without their wives freaking out and telling them they can't be friends anymore?
I have a guy friend who got married right before Christmas. We have been friends for 14 years. He was there my first day of college and, surprisingly enough, was at my college graduation 14 years later. He's been through a lot with me and I count on him to be there when I need him. (I'm not just a taker, I'm there for him, too.)
I met his new wife a week before they got married. That in itself worried me. Why didn't we meet earlier? He always explained to the girls he dated that he had this friend.... He was talking about me. I think our relationship is hard to explain to others until you see us together. Dh calls him my boyfriend as a joke because we always went to hockey games when I came home to visit. Now I call him dh's boyfriend because they started hanging out when we moved home.
At the wedding she made a couple of comments that made me think we weren't going to be talking much. He had promised me when I talked to him about my concerns before the wedding that that wouldn't happen.
We have emailed a couple of times since the wedding and talked about getting together. He travels a lot and we've been really busy. However, I emailed him last week and still have not gotten a response. I thought maybe he was busy so I waited until today. Still no response. So I called his cell phone on my way home - the number is no longer good.
So this is what I am left to think: his new wife told him he couldn't be friends with me anymore. Why else would I not have heard from him? Am I just being paranoid?
So tell me, what do you think?
You know what bothers me about women? We are so threatened by other women. Why can't men have friends that are women without their wives freaking out and telling them they can't be friends anymore?
I have a guy friend who got married right before Christmas. We have been friends for 14 years. He was there my first day of college and, surprisingly enough, was at my college graduation 14 years later. He's been through a lot with me and I count on him to be there when I need him. (I'm not just a taker, I'm there for him, too.)
I met his new wife a week before they got married. That in itself worried me. Why didn't we meet earlier? He always explained to the girls he dated that he had this friend.... He was talking about me. I think our relationship is hard to explain to others until you see us together. Dh calls him my boyfriend as a joke because we always went to hockey games when I came home to visit. Now I call him dh's boyfriend because they started hanging out when we moved home.
At the wedding she made a couple of comments that made me think we weren't going to be talking much. He had promised me when I talked to him about my concerns before the wedding that that wouldn't happen.
We have emailed a couple of times since the wedding and talked about getting together. He travels a lot and we've been really busy. However, I emailed him last week and still have not gotten a response. I thought maybe he was busy so I waited until today. Still no response. So I called his cell phone on my way home - the number is no longer good.
So this is what I am left to think: his new wife told him he couldn't be friends with me anymore. Why else would I not have heard from him? Am I just being paranoid?
So tell me, what do you think?
Labels: friends
Posted
by Hedda on Tuesday, April 15, 2008
It's that time of year again. See the purple link on the right of my page. Click on it and sponsor me while I walk to save babies.
This will be the fourth year my family has been involved with this fundraiser. It really means a lot to me because of the reasearch they have supported that is helping to prevent premature births and birth defects. Every day I miss my baby boy even thought I know he is in a better place.
I love sweet boy. I know that you watch over me everyday and that you are always with me.
This will be the fourth year my family has been involved with this fundraiser. It really means a lot to me because of the reasearch they have supported that is helping to prevent premature births and birth defects. Every day I miss my baby boy even thought I know he is in a better place.
I love sweet boy. I know that you watch over me everyday and that you are always with me.
Watermark - Glory Baby lyrics
Glory Baby, You slipped away
As fast as we could say baby, baby
You were growing, what happened Dear,
You disappeared on us baby, baby
Heaven will hold you before we do
Heaven will keep you safe
Until we're home with you Until we're home with you
CHORUS
We miss you everyday, miss you in every way
But we know there's a day when we will hold you, we will hold you
And you'll kiss our tears away, when we're home to stay
*We can't wait for the day when we will see you, we will see you
But baby let sweet Jesus hold you, until mom and dad can hold you*
You'll just have heaven before we do
You'll just have heaven before we do
Sweet little baby, it's hard to understand it
Cause we are hurting, we are hurting
But there is healing, and we know we're stronger people
Through the growing, and in knowing
All things work together for our good
And God works his purposes
Just like he said he would, just like he said he would
CHORUS
BRIDGE
I can't imagine Heaven's lullabies
And what they must sound like
But I will rest in knowing
Heaven is your home
And it's all you'll ever know, all you'll ever know
CHORUS
Labels: grief, prematurity, WalkAmerica